well, unfortunately i'm stuck here on the east coast (not for much longer 
than this winter though hopefully), but i do know that a fair amount of 
rainbow family are planning to attend the summer of love reunion which 
promises to be a good time no matter what. i'm sure you'll find a lot of 
like minded brothers and sisters there who'd be willing to welcome you home.
also, have you checked out www.welcomehome.org? there should be phone #'s 
of lightlines in your area posted there.
: Joshua!
what a great name you've been blessed with! some of my favorite brothers 
are named joshua (which is actually one of the reasons i took the time to 
respond)
peace and blessings
leah
ps
if you do make it to summer of love, and you come across a kind brother 
named rusty, please tell him leah sends her love.
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